Saturday, October 22, 2011

Draw me


Find me…

I am like that little tiny thing hiding in a hole, afraid of being preyed upon. I have lost my way and all my path feels blurry now. In the midst of darkness where eyes cannot normally see me, find me desperately.  


Draw me…

I am like the weak frog seeking escape from a deep well. The sole of my feet are tired from hopping and the water appears to be drowning me. My heart faint from life’s up and down. My life lay wait in fear. I might not survive it longer, if I linger too long in this pit. Draw me out of my worst times.


Bring me…

I am like the poor widow hiding from her debtors. Walking through life like a borrowed glass. I am too ashamed to face the world. Bring me out of my lowest estate.


Place me…

I am like the troubled wings finding place to land. 'Life billows roll' have made my heart sick, I am tired of flapping and flapping. I feel all my life depends on it. Place me on higher ground.


Heal me…

From my bleeding heart and dashed hopes; from the weariness that plunge my soul; from the sores of past hurts; from the pain that bangs my bones. I feel a pie is missing in my basket. Something all lost in the midst of it all. Heal me completely and make me whole again.


Draw me...

From the deepest of fears where my fate seem sealed; from the deepest dungeons, where bat crawl and creeping animals draw all over me and life battle for my soul; from the horrible pit where I cannot find a place to put my feet. Draw me out like a bowl of water.


I plead tonight Lord, Draw me Lord. I want to be found from my hidden place. I seem not to know the way back, show me the road back to you. I want to come running after you. Give strength to my fainting heart. Let my joy come running home to you. Where hope as eluded me and strength drawn from my weak veins; let me find my strength in you anew. To you alone, to you alone, where joy last forever and love is never ending, let me come running. Where I am tired of flapping my wings and the journey seems unending; keep the end fixed to my eyes. Let my weary eyes and deaf ears come alive again. Give strength to my legs again to run the race with joy. Let me find the joy in Salvation again. Draw me Lord, before it is rather too late. Let me find your love afresh and new. Let me walk in your love like never before because that’s where I am complete. That’s where your maiden is complete. Fresh like your maiden, bring me back to you. Comfort my heart again and let me beat about in excitement. 

Oluwamitomisin

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Saturday, August 27, 2011

You created my innermost being-Psalm 139

1 You have searched me, LORD,    and you know me. 2 You know when I sit and when I rise;    you perceive my thoughts from afar. 3 You discern my going out and my lying down;    you are familiar with all my ways. 4 Before a word is on my tongue    you, LORD, know it completely. 5 You hem me in behind and before,    and you lay your hand upon me. 6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain. 7 Where can I go from your Spirit?    Where can I flee from your presence? 8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;    if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. 9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,    if I settle on the far side of the sea, 10 even there your hand will guide me,    your right hand will hold me fast. 11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me    and the light become night around me,” 12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;    the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you. 13 For you created my inmost being;    you knit me together in my mother’s womb. 14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;    your works are wonderful,    I know that full well. 15 My frame was not hidden from you    when I was made in the secret place,    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. 16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;    all the days ordained for me were written in your book    before one of them came to be. 17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!    How vast is the sum of them! 18 Were I to count them,    they would outnumber the grains of sand— when I awake, I am still with you. 19 If only you, God, would slay the wicked!    Away from me, you who are bloodthirsty! 20 They speak of you with evil intent;    your adversaries misuse your name. 21 Do I not hate those who hate you, LORD,    and abhor those who are in rebellion against you? 22 I have nothing but hatred for them;    I count them my enemies. 23 Search me, God, and know my heart;    test me and know my anxious thoughts. 24 See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

Once a child with the story, now the woman with the dream

It was just like a normal day; rain had justified itself and midnight was just creeping in. You took the wheels, drove yourself down the dark path to the labour room. The day said I am Tuesday, August 28 but you didn't have strength to reply. All you could do was cry out in pain.

The road to the hospital felt like a long journey. Hundred times down the road, you had to hold pain at ransomI cramped over and over. I want to be out, I screamed from within you. It is getting cold and your skin burn hurt in pain. You groaned, cried, screamed, moaned, prayed; it was a long wait.

Now you've arrived but I won’t. You wonder in pain, what else, could be keeping me waiting. Waiting you had to do this night as you laid in bed with legs apart. It is over 270 days and now your dream seems not to be coming forth. All what your flushed eyes saw were nurses running helter, skelter, your itchy ears thought it heard labour, labour. You bowed your head to pray and cried, ‘Now! Please, lord!’ Before you knew it, you were on your knees, groaning in pain. No one seems to be listening, knives, scalpels, blades, white aprons running the aisle. 
Suddenly, you felt hands pulling you in every direction. They sang in one voice Push! Push!! 
'I am', you said annoyingly. You were so scared; you threw your legs in the air and pushed. 

(noise) screaming

then (silence) 

Alas! Your joy have arrived. It was a long wait but it now feels like a minute.

I am grateful to God for giving me you, my blessed mother. You waited in pain to have me this night, Tuesday 28, August. It won’t have been better. Although, it was a long year, and you faced so much; it was a worthwhile journey. It might not have been the brightest of morning. I might not be the brightest of girls and prettiest among women. My hair might not drape like satin and eyes glitter like emerald. I am your child with a story and you are my mother. Now, I am a woman with the DREAM

This is a tribute to my mum and all the mothers out there. You deserve that attention and all the flowers in the world for bearing pain and bringing us forth.

Oluwamitomisin

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Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Why have?

I wonder what in the world, I am doing. I wonder if someone needs to break through my head to make me understand, some fellows are not worth the stress. It bits my imagination, why I have chosen to pour my oil in a leaking cistern. Why I have chosen to wear my loveliest apparel to an ordinary gathering?

Why have you adorned yourself so much in vain admiration, Tosin. Have you forgotten so suddenly that your royal apparel could be cast into the sea of the ordinary and your modest adorning shattered into pieces? Have you forgotten so soon 'Daughter of Zion' that men not of worth likely think you are the same.

I will ask you like the son of man, where is wisdom you seek? Where can it be found? Even among the noblest princes, wisdom is rare and among women, it is largely missing. Woman of understanding, where is your worth? Why have you cast it out at young? I searched all over and cannot comprehend the folly that now lives with noble women. Why have you cast this young beauty to swine and rob dignity in the mud of none. Beauty is vain; charm is deceitful like the tongue of a flattery man. He cannot comprehend her worth; he throws her from one to the next.  Where can it be found? In the inward spirit of a man?

For all I know, you are worth than your folly. You are created in the image of God and He has paid the price on your behalf to be in His likeness. I am sure your worth would be difficult to gauge and weight of no measure, because ornaments cannot describe your choice value. The price of wisdom is beyond rubies, so get wisdom and apply understanding. It is easy to forget wisdom but when you suddenly remember, it reminds you that you are worth more than and cannot be compared with....an interesting lesson in life.

No one worth your attention and takes priority, if they do not value your values. Not worth fighting for, if you are not valued and respected.

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Monday, July 4, 2011

Stretching Out to you Lord

It’s been ages I did this, almost 40 days that I last blogged. I want to report myself to myself and to anyone who cares to listen but most importantly report myself to my Maker.

I feel guilt daily Lord. I am a sinful woman, my thoughts are not pure. If I have to place myself on a scale of loyalty and faithfulness, I think I have missed it somewhere. I have torn the garment of purity and shredded innocence in pieces. I am like a new bride who left her love in the cabin in search of a foul love. Who would save me from this body of shame, if not you Lord, My soul cries out to you lord. I wonder why I plunge in the river of sin and I remember guilt only when my flesh is satisfied. I am a sinful woman, walking the path of death.

I keep running but how can I hide before my maker. His eyes are all over the earth. He watches me in the secret even though He cannot behold sin. I can pull strings with men, and hide under chastity but my thoughts are like crystals before God- He sees them all. Even if I hide in the depth of hell, I can see his eyes following me about. How could I have forgotten my vow? How can I have forgotten the daughter of whom I am? Why do I spend years rubbing shoulders with the daughter of Babylon?

I heard upon mount Zion, there is deliverance. I am of the root of Zion but every day I wallow more in sin. I have let the world steal my pie, my innocence, my purity, my first love. I have stepped into the shoes of shame, fame and hypocrisy. Lord I want to be everything you want me to be, I don’t want to lie in diplomacy. I don’t want to call a spade a shade. I want to live my life in totality and in truth. I want to behold my life in your mirror and not in the shadow of circumstances.

Lust has taken hold of me, what sons and daughters of men have failed you with, I have chosen as my beloved friend. What grieves your heart is what I measure up to now. I feel missing, please lord bring me out, I want please you. Years are rolling and I feel left out somewhere. Please save me, save me before my ship sink. I know I grieve you and I don’t deserve your love but your love is unconditional and steadfast. There is no measure of sin you cannot forgive and no depth, you cannot reach your hands to, even in the midst of my sin, I find your eyes following me everywhere. I see your hand pulling me here and there. Don’t let the heaven become brass, and the earth become iron. Let my head be lifted above sin even if the whole world chooses not to serve you. I love you Lord because you first loved me. You have paid the price of sin for my sake and I will not repay it with my blood. Separate me from the spirit of error, and from the daughters of men that dwell in lust, fame and let me leave up to your standard.

I am eating the dust and staining my garment, please catch me before I fall. I choose to serve you all the days of my life and to work in your vineyard and to use all I have to worship you but I am getting soiled every day. I promised never to uncover my skirt to any man and never to eat the forbidden fruit before I wed but slowly & slowly, I am turning back. I am fighting not to turn back, Lord. Please help me lord, before I lose it. Never let me go, lord. If I will lose it, please take me from this world. After all, I am coming home to leave in your presence forever more.

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Saturday, May 14, 2011

Dear Diary 'My soul pour out'

I am blogging a lot these days. I have tried to reason it but my mind can’t comprehend it. My hours seem shorter than ever these days. It seems like life is running the end of its errand.

My moments are similar to a fellow retiring from a loved job, or a woman dying but scribbling her last thoughts in words before crossing the verge, a girl about to lose her most loved dream. It seems I am leaving my priceless.

For me; it’s nearing the end of my singleness, the days when I do things my way, see things within my walls, and decide the next phase. I am leaving behind the world I have ever being used to. I am about stepping on new grounds and I am thinking, what if there is no way? And the road and happiness all ends here.

I am lucky to have grown in someone’s arms where decision was made for me, I was advised like a queen-“don’t go there; step out of that”. I am moving to a zone where I decide for others. My children will look up to me. Duties would beckon on me, life will name themselves after me and responsibilities would be hanging on every side. It is a whole new world.

I wish I don’t go on this journey, but I hear it’s also joyful there. I wish you could call me home faster; I am too afraid to step in there. If you could come quickly, I will be glad, Lord. I have seen lovers look at themselves and I am afraid would this be real for me someday. Can I truly love someone for the rest of my life? I am like every woman; always thinking my decision isn't good enough. I have seen people say vows but how long will I keep mine. The world is tougher, lord. It’s no more pleasant like the fairy tales.

Heavenly father, watch me. I am preparing to leave. It’s scary and scary. I have not started but I am already getting tired. Lord, if you would not go with me, I rather stay here as a maiden forever. 

I ask myself everyday if you have called me to be a help mate because I don’t want to have a love greater than you. I want to be where you are. I want to spend my life with you. Remember when I told you to take me just before I step out of your grace. I still ask the same, lord. If you are not going to go with me, let me come to you. I am afraid, oh Lord.

I have seen two loved birds sing the world most loveable song and see them tear themselves apart with the same words. How can I be the first and not experience the last. I memorize all the words my mama thought me, and read in books, “love conquer all” but that’s if I love in the first place. Please, who knows what love is because I am uncertain of this large word coded in four letters.

May I love forever but I don’t know how to give my heart away. This love has always brought me pain and hurt. People say it’s meant to last for a lifetime but what if along the line I lose it. If I manage to hold this love, how can I never lose sight of it? Father, please help me because words cannot describe these times. I am at the verge of leaving my whole meaning, comfort, chastity, purity; that which I have pride myself all my life, to hold and to behold, in sickness, in health. I am leaving a time when men fight for my attention and days when I request and a dozen answer to my quest. I am coming to complete dependence. 

Lord, I don’t want to go if you are not there with me.

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Saturday, April 23, 2011

Tired Feet: a warm find


By the pool sat these cold feet; tired, bruised and dirty, held by a worn-out hand-woven slip-on. His owner can describe it, as years of running, walking, and dragging across the shortest miles ever.
Lying in waste, wrapped in tattered linen is this lifeless body; hopeless beyond description, vulnerable beyond major weakness. It’s been over three decades and the end of another is just round the corner.
Just below three hundred nights could have been enough to strategize, improve or out-compete but every night; it seems not to be enough. At first, it would have called bitten, the second; twice bitten, the third; thrice shy but how would I call the thirtieth and beyond. It is unthinkable that this body once alive on a horseback, fighting wars, conquering land, fending for food, one man’s husband would be lost against hope for thirty eight turning points. Every time, he extended his arms and pushed his paralyzed legs, it reminded him the years of groaning, the days of miracle snatching by the so-called fellow who just crawled into the pool a few days ago and left out whole so soon.
The angels must have been unkind not to attend according to moral standard; first come, first serve. The family must have been so unjust for not pushing fast enough to outrun others. Instead of leaving a coin, they left a word. If it had being coin, would it have bought back life to the broken dead spine?  Wishful thinking, unreal, unheard, extreme, impossible, words after words, until his pocket were filled against hope.
In human words, life is not fair to all. But how do you call it when suddenly, one night, just in few hours it all happened. Does it mean, life suddenly remembered to be fair? He was not the only one I realized but how could I have known if not for the stranger that passed by and made today one day.
I realized there was a feast in the city; I am sure the road that lead to the feast was far wider, smoother and shorter than the one leading to this sheep gate. Along the porch walked an unknown man, who saw this lifeless body and knew his pain. Everyone would have thought someone travelling all the way down into a city would be heading for the feast. At least, that I am sure about, this unknown man to all was beyond royal, noble cannot fully measure him, great would be too small to describe him. I wonder why he had to come to a place where souls were crying for help, screaming in self-pity, complaining, blaming, praying and dreaming while he could sit in the king’s porch and merry.
But right here by this grey pool, out of the multitude of hopeless situation, a new halleluiah chorus was written. Through his eyes, I knew that the infirmity was not unto death, the cries and pains not a waste, the night of loneliness and cries, not in vain. Although, I thought he had missed it when the stranger gave a hand, and the hopeless man rendered complains but this man you call stranger knew that a new hallelujah song had to be written.
“I look back to that very point when one man had to give up everything; his life, kingdom, royalty, feast to take up the sinful “me”. If you ask me, only one cord cannot be broken, only one heart cannot leave one behind. It’s of the Father and Mother. I guess because they brought me to life, trained me up and have me imbedded in their blood. But If I was to tell the whole truth from my heart, they still cannot love me as much as take my place or stand in hell for me. I look at this very confused, chaos state of human mind and how well we think we could shut it out, exchange it, chose to believe or not to, replace with wealth or deny it. It still doesn’t change the truth or ever will. Even when we fall in self-denial or choose to leave in ignorance, the truth still lies within us that nothing else in this world can fill that hollow in our heart crying out for more, except the self-existing one himself who came in sinful flesh to those who would believe him does it.
What a day for this paralyzed body! If he had followed self-denial trip and ignore the request of this unknown man. “Do you want to be made well”?
If you want to be made well. Congratulations. It’s Easter. I am not talking about holidays, Easter eggs, Easter bunnies or tags we choose to surround ourselves with. It is about Jesus Christ who paid it all.
Make a simple prayer:  Lord, I want to be well. I am sorry for all my ways. I acknowledge into my life as my Lord and personal saviour. Amen.
If it was only you, Jesus would still have died on the cross.
Story re-written from John 5:1-14
You thought about anything while reading. Leave a comment. Just to let me know you dropped by.

Oluwamitomisin

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Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Strong Enough- 'Hope to a fostering mother & child'

This morning feel special. The sun came by quickly by my windows, winds whispering quietly, “Tomisin! wake up and see”.

I reluctantly woke up, stretching at my best. Hawwwh! I gave my last yawn. My memories came back quickly; the night had left me a telegraph; “you will meet someone special tomorrow”.  

My weary eyes widened quickly knowing the hour had come finally to meet my visitor. I stretched my arms towards my back and gently closed my eyes to mutter a word of prayer. Silently I said a few words.

I think I saw one irregular person or should I call them people; a woman holding a child but not hers. I am not sure, if it was a boy or a girl because I was almost resuming back to sleep. You know those hours, you mutter a prayer and half the time, you are fast asleep and the few words you could remember are “Jesus” and the call of “Father Lord”. In His mercy, I didn't receive a daylight nightmare. I received something new today.

The woman whose eyes were faint and narrow with a child. She looked like a passing flower whose beauty was about to fade. But the sun was just coming up. The clouds of harvest are just gathering but she is hurrying back for the night. The lines on her face showed she had once being dogged, but like fading fabric, her hope was wearing out. I realized that she was joining the mob with the child, struggling to carry her tired legs. So I am writing this to you special one. You need not join the mob. You are one of the very irregular, uncommon, rare kind of jewel. It is a beautiful morning, especially for you.

The works of your hands look invisible. You getting weary of an assignment, you thought you bought upon yourself. It is a beautiful morning, especially for you. You did not turn your back even though you had reasons to. You have chosen to raise another man’s child. For such a time as this; your arms are holding a future. You are the today, tomorrow hangs upon. I am here to give you a gentle pat on your back and say well done. You ask? Who am I to give you a pat? I don’t even know what it cost you daily. I might have never been in your shoes and may never try to but I can read your act on someone’s wall.

I can see it in the eyes of the child you are holding. Unclear to me, if she is a boy or girl, I see smile all over this face. His hopes are anchored on yours. The flicker of the future looks brightly on what you can do. She follows you strongly knowing you are her entire world. She says in her mind that your shoulders are beautiful.

You are just beautiful to take upon your shoulders to raise another man’s child though he was not blood of your blood. You are beyond amazing to be called mama in the midst of your tired veins for yours. God had made you strong enough, that’s why he called you blessed. You can walk beside him, because he follows your step. You can provide for him because God meet your needs. The seed you are watching can change the world. The tears you are sowing may hold key to new discovery. Just hang on there, the light is coming. If she does not change the world, peradventure, she might change yours. If she ever does not, you can be assured that you gave your very best, you held out the strong hand of kindness.

It must have been battle for Joseph to raise a child in the womb of a woman he never met with. Who knew he would become the saviour of our world, the carriers of our sin and the lamb of glory. It must have been great pain to nurture his tender hands to become a carpenter when he did not carry his likeness. It might just sound unnecessary insane to raise an orphan within your walls. But who knew that an orphan girl will save his people. Who knew she would become the delight of the king. They called her Hadassah, who knew she would become Queen Esther.

Are you afraid, she would run for her real mother when she finds out you aren't the one. Are you lost in the hope, that he would never call you mother? You must put aside your fears now, woman and raise him up. He can change the world and certainly yours. Provide for him, shelter her, show her beyond kindness, dress him, hold him tightly.

Do you know your mother’s love can change a world. Know that you have a heavenly father watching over you.  He would care for you and make your back strong. She might not be the bone of your bone but she looks up to you. Even if she forgets for a while, one day, she would come back to the memories of your kindness. You have got to train him up even if the father rejected him. Show him what a man can do with the Father’s Love. Show her the path to follow, there lies your peace. Brace your shoulders; you are strong enough like Mary.

“To the world you might be one person, but to one person you just might be the world”...anonymous

To all mothers nursing a child in a difficult time. To all women looking for one. To great women of faith fostering another person's child. To all guardians, mentors, single mothers and teenage girls nursing a child out of a costly mistake or rape incidence; for such a time as this, you are nursing a future and your shoulders are just strong enough. To those of us who grew up in the tender care of another; it’s time to remember the good beginning and the very act of human kindness. Even if hope was lost in the middle, throw a heart instead of a stone.

With all love to you special mothers & the future mothers. You are strong enough

Oluwamitomisin

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Sunday, April 3, 2011

I found a breast- 'Tribute to Mothers'


Morning after mornings, I must have found myself lying in the tender frail arms of yours; the arms that nurtured me with love. With palms gently stroking my face, you brought ease to my pains. With smile so amazing and eyes beaming with hope, you brought faith to my fainting heart. I take it not lightly that you carried me in your womb for days more than 270. You bore me in agony and nurtured me with your precious breast. I must have locked your hair with my fragile small hands, stroke your breast and pulled your cross-shaped pendant that constant hanged around your neck. I am happy to know you didn't mind. Although, I was at the mercy of life, fragile, could not clean or feed myself, yet you did not leave me to fate. I might have been annoying at times and troublesome on many raining days, yet you demonstrated the true mother’s love. You spoke for me when I did not have a voice, ensuring that I got a fair treatment.

I taught I was just stealing a few moments but you gave me a lifetime. When I trailed after death in pain, you ran out for me. You had walked the whole town to find me food. You had jump into the river if you saw me drowning. You had chopped your fingers off and get it burnt if you must get my food in wild fire. Although, you tasted bitter tears, your face still carry that beautiful eyes. In your breast, I found warmth, care and hope. Your care was the best of all, never letting me go even when it cost you everything. You never ignored my cry when your sleep was so precious, feeling every inch of the pain I feel. I am confident beyond the shadows of my doubt that my fears disappeared in your smile and calmness resumed when I listened to your tender voice whispering silently into my ears. How did you sense, I needed to eat? How did you know it was time to change my diapers? How did you know it was my stomach that was rumbling?

You had all reasons to give up, yet you chose devotion to your family. You did cast your dreams into the sea and the showers of prophesy that hovered over your head. You thought you could complete all your melodies, paint your words on the world with me but life has robbed you more instead. I know I have not been an easy child but your corrections have made a better person. I want to say that I am proud of you. Your dreams are not scattered in the wind. They are only multiplying within my walls.

I was me ever before you held me. You have taught me to walk like a woman, allowing me sometimes to ride in my own boat, paddle my own tides and sail boundaries unreached. Your unending words of encouragement have shaped my life. Now, I think I’m old but always the baby that slept gently in your arms every night. You have birth a jewel because you are beyond an impeccable one. When I look through the mirror, I see the hands of the crafty strong hands that moulded me. I can cling to the path of your hard work, discipline, selflessness, and courage. It must have been tough, but you were tougher. I found the breast that nurtured me; it’s my Mum's. I hope someday I would be able to do the same beautifully.

Tribute to all mothers, mothers-to-be and any figure of the female gender especially my Mom.

Friday, March 4, 2011

The Diary of "Nowhere"


Sometime ago at dusk in the village of Common, a little girl called Nowhere, walked down the street of Mediocre. This was the main path to all the houses of people of Common, to the stream of Routine, which was downtown the village of Common, to the marketplace called “Monotone”, centred where all the people of Common do their daily activities.
It was not new that she walked the path with her friends. They sang the songs of "failure and average" and played with the mud of “never and impossibilities”. Something common to these Common girls was common. They used common sense, lived within the neighbourhood of the Ordinary and never stepped out of common village. They did everything in the same way; exchange greetings in the same style. Walked in the same pattern, sang in the same tune, carried pot in the same manner; nothing was ever new. But, there were strange things about Nowhere. She hated her name, loathed the people and was never fully agreeing to their plans and teachings. Every morning while people of Common matched down the stream of Routine for their daily bath, fetching of water and fishing. Nowhere would sit on the tree of Odd and watch villagers do their normal activities.
Common people were full of it! They were known as people of “same-same”, “copycat” and “conformity”. They added daily. The only people that were added to them range from new born babies to brides from neighbouring village. Although, only few new people were added from outside, the town of Common was a very large one; at least six children per family and over a thousand families in a colony. There were several taboos and norms in the town of Common, particularly about inter-marrying with neighbouring villages. It was a rule that new people joining this village must learn the ways of Common before being accepted. Twenty nights before a bride joins the village of common, the women of Common, popularly known as “Simple”, carry their oils of General and bath the woman at the stream of Routine. It was their ritual. They teach her their ways. If peradventure, she could not learn their ways or brought something new, she was rejected. People from the town of Anybodies, Ordinary and Plain were easy to marry but women from such neighbourhood as Exceptional, Extraordinary, Outstanding and Unusual were typically hated. The men of Common detest with passion women with tribal marks of Greatness and weaves of Big dreams. They were sore distraught, if they ever found out their women had a lineage with people of these towns.

When the elders of the town of Common sit at the weekly towns meeting of Spectators, their main mission is to discuss people of other neighbourhoods who did not believe in the ways of Common. Abominable, un-becoming, unacceptable were words not farfetched from the mouth of the town’s head-chief, who was also known as Ordinary. “Those people should never be seen around us; in fact our children should never cross the barriers of their town gate”, he would say with all conviction.
These were also familiar agreements by the town’s men.  People who defiled the common's rule and regulations were thrown in the wild of Uncommon.
 Nowhere detest the town of Common but she dared not say it. She silently walks the woods of loneliness to scream aloud, “I have a dream”. She sneaks behind the towns chief chambers and watch prisoners do the things they learnt from extraordinary town. Although, they were strange, she had the curiosity to learn their ways.
“What if I was caught?” she asked herself. It was a rule that, if anyone was caught near the prisoner’s chamber. The fellow would face the same fate. No one could be bailed and many were openly denounced, except they denounce their Big-Dreams Creed and re-learn the ways of Common. Graduates of Common were known to paste on their walls, “Great Commoner; Commoner for life”. Re-learning the ways of common was similar to repeating a class, the people saw that as great shame.
Sometimes at night, nowhere would sneak to the neighbourhood of the Distinguished. It was the smallest town in the whole of the region, yet the strongest. She wanted to be the better self; the version of greatness, Common had never seen. The commoners could never accept that.  They all profess to be strong. They called the Distinguished, “Devils”, instilling fears in their children. Nowhere could remember asking her mother about the people of Distinguished and she shouted, “If you ever go near that land they will eat you up”. It was one of the old fables that people of Distinguished became lions when they cite the people of Common. But the few times, Nowhere was there, the Distinguished extended their hands, asking her to join their towns meeting.

Sitting on the odd tree that had been 200 years old according to the town’s history and the oldest tree in that neighbourhood, she realized that people of Common were never satisfied. They complained and were always sad. It was common to them to blame one person, neighbours or blame events. One of the prestigious jobs in Common was to do duties in the king’s palace but Nowhere remembered that even the vibrant youth of common who attended to the “usual” duties in the king palace were also never happy. This made her sad and afraid that she too would never be happy in the land of Common.

There was a mad man lost in the town of the Common; they called him “Great things”. He was called mad, not because he was really insane but because he did strange things, and said uncommon words. No one could bind him and it was a wide guess that people in the prison got something from him and became rebellious to the town of Common. He was banished to sit at the far end of the town where people could hardly see him. Although, he was banned, yet he could not be stopped but he seldom came out of hiding during common’s festival and displays his talents. He promised never to leave Common and swore by his fathers. The king hated him so much that Great things could not be sent away from Common. Great things was also a king, whoever, chose to stay in Common to win a few.

Just right in the middle of the thought, nowhere realized a simple trick to her mysteries. She jumped off the tree of odd and shouted, “I have a plan; the mad man of Great things”.


Thank you for visiting and reading............. story inspired by Dream Giver (Bruce Wilkinson).

Oluwamitomisin

Also read: The Costly Dream

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Meet My Blind Neighbour


Every morning I wake up to the fragrance of flowers that seep through my windows from the well tendered flowered garden of my neighbour. Like a perfect patch of colours on a wooden palette, they are beautifully arranged like a bridal bouquet. Before the sun steps out from the east, I watch these little things like feathers swerve in every direction. I guess that’s how I receive my daily portion. I pray alongside, hoping someday I will see the beautiful tender hands that nurture the garden.

But not only has the flowers amazed me every morning, the gentle arms of a stranger feeling flowers from garden to garden leaves me pondering for many hours. The stranger had left me a note one day, asking for my permission to smell the flowers in my garden and feel them for just a few minutes.

One of such mornings I had asked from my windows, “What is special about my garden flowers?” To me, they were mere dying, uninviting flowers and with no peculiar smell. She returned my question with a smile and said, At least, they are beautiful than the ones in my garden. Pointing towards the direction of a plant in my garden, she added, “Can’t you smell the fragrance? It is pretty amazing plant!”

That morning, I watched her move from garden to garden. I suspected she had written all the neighbours of her morning flower adventures. Everyone within vicinity seems to love her around their gardens. At least I could count a couple of neighbours saying hello and bidding good morning while others chatted her up.
Something was peculiar about this strange young woman. She was an epitome of beauty with bold beautiful frame. She had a smile, so unending like the flowers in my neighbour’s garden, never running dry like a stream. If I could borrow a line from the movie “diary of a black mad woman”, her smiles made my world complete.

It’s being three months I have been doing this daily watch but today came with a difference.
I woke up to the noise of digging in the garden and not to a fragrance. Someone was pulling the flowers in my neighbour’s garden with anger. The fellow must be pretty mad this morning, I thought. How could she? I jumped out of my room with pyjamas and ran hurriedly to her. Everyone was quite amazed and standing from afar to watch the scenario. Those flowers meant the whole world to me, I said. Storming on the woman, I shouted, “Are you running out of your mind”. Who gave you right to take out flowers from this garden? Out of frustration, I shouted more at her and asking, “If this was her plan on everyone’s garden”.

“They are mine, I own them and I was keeping them until last night”, she replied. I felt ashamed but still angry within. It wasn't long that I realized it was the pretty stranger. This reality made me angrier and it wasn't long before I started struggling to get the shovels from her hand. She started crying, and mumbling words that I could hardly understand.

Why did you destroy these pretty flowers? Can’t you see? Are you blind? Can’t you see they are beautiful and make this neighborhood glitter? Answer me. Are you blind? I shouted the more. The reality that I could be sued for harassing my neighbour who was the owner of the well tended garden started seeping in like water through the rock.
After a few minutes, she slowly responded pleading for me to return her walking stick and shovel. “Please, I am blind.” I returned her walking stick thinking she was mocking me. How come my flowers don’t smell good? How come I can’t have what everyone has? Why are my flowers long and thin? She added.
I was shocked by these words. Of a truth, she was blind. Without the walking stick, you can hardly tell she was blind for she looked all complete. 

First the strange woman was my neighbor. She was blind and never realized the true beauty of what she had. Her flower made the environment boom. She could smell the fragrance from my garden, but she could not see the beauty in hers. I took her arms to the nearly uprooted removed flowers and told her to feel them.

You garden is the most beautiful of all in this neighborhood  We are all tending our plants to be like yours. It so sad you never knew. You never tendered these flowers but they are a true reflection of your beauty. I have been longing to meet the tender arms that nurture the garden. I never knew you lived in the neighborhood. I quickly added that I was sorry. "I am sorry for shouting at you", I said out loudly. 
It seems that my words brought light to her soul. She started to cry softly.

I realized from that point onward that our mind is like a well tendered garden containing beautiful flowers on every side. My Blind Neighbour on the other hand is that part of me that lives so close to me, that phase of my life that’s dark and unknown. Some people call it potential and it seems that she is asleep always but if she could wake up to the true essence of herself, she holds the beauty in her world. How could she think the neighbor's flowers were better than hers? She could hardly see a thing. That is perception. It makes us blind to the other. Like my blind neighbour, we are often times lost within the walls of mediocrity, feeling we are in-sufficient. We see nothing. Feel nothing good of ourselves. We think we are nobody and that we are completely lost and missing in our own world. We have completely forgotten that we are epitome of God’s beauty. We hide beneath the walls of the past; secretly dreaming of the future, hoping no one catches us. Like hidden faces, we are only a mirror of ourselves, empty soul beneath the mast of unaware beauty.

Possibly I am also blind to my own world. May be it’s time for me to begin to see the true beauty of the flowers in my garden for out of it comes the issues of life. Meet my blind Neighbour: The inner part of Me "My Mind". Tend your mind like a garden and open your eyes to see the beauty of God's creation.

Oluwamitomisin

Also read: The Dusty Labour

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Our Deepest Fears

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Marianne Williamson

2011 says Thank You


A big “Thank You” to everyone, for the huge impact you had in my life in 2010.

Thank you for the support, care, kindness, favours, criticism, attention and ultimately your love. 
I can't recount calls, texts, and cards from friends. Without you, I’m sure that 2010 would have been extremely difficult.

The year 2010 was a great year
Love made— love broken
Friendship made—friendship broken
Magical moments, memorable laugh

From my side I wish you all a magical New Year filled with loving wishes and beautiful thoughts.
May 2011 mark the beginning of a tidal wave of love, happiness, blessings and bright futures.


Those who need someone special, May you find true love……
Those who need money, May your finances overflow……
Those who need care, May you find a good heart….
Those who need friends, May you meet lovely people
Those who need life, May you find GOD.

I wish you all a very Blessed and Prosperous 2011 with all love

Oluwamitomisin

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Black & White in a Grey World

I picked up my pencil, sharpened it and began writing a few lines.

It’s been months—my mind felt like a moving train. But still was the hand that held the pencil. Could it be the stillness of the night?

As frozen, as these hands felt, my mind moved like the great river. Words gushed into my hands like a broken pipe. I hoped my hands could catch up with the frequency of my thought. Peradventure it was a matter of survival.

Pondering through thoughts, flashing with memories
Counting the losses and gains, unlocking the bolt to giant doors
Finding the last piece to the puzzles, sorting answers to the mystery of life
In the midst of the grey world, I could still manage to see life in black and white.

I have only scratched the surface.
They looked like mere visions; unshakeable, unbeatable
It’s in the midst of this grey world, that all my skies are painted brightly
My womb leaps in joy again.
Here I find my tired limbs regain strength
My lips chap with smile and my numb hands gushing with blood.
In the chrism of the dew and cool of the dawn, I found a fresh start
I have found reasons to see black and white in a grey world.

Oluwamitomisin

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The Dusty Labour


Who would wipe these tears off her face? She sits in a lonely place darkened by the fears that locks her mind, twisted in the memories of broken promises, wandering why the world has taken a turn. The world await a precious gold but it appears she is buried within the earth of deception. It awaits precious fine white linen but she can hardly be found.

Who would restore this lost hope?
She locks her fingers in her tiny braids, pulling each strand with a rhythm, tapping her feet on the floor, wishing the world would halt at her feet. Beneath her cold veins is the hope for many but she seems to be fainting like a dying soul. A generation lies in her womb but she appears to have no strength to birth them out.

Who can deliver her thought from destruction? Eyes twitching in every direction, like moments stolen by photo shots, you can feel pain flicking like magic wind. Every thought against the other, which is she supposed to uphold? Day by day, months by months, years by years, she's being deceived. Friends deceiving, promises broken, relationship unsatisfying, weary, tired, beaten, wrecked, broken, words cannot describe how she feels. 

Who can withhold her hands from shivering? This night, she looked at herself in the mirror of her past
Once, she felt unbreakable, unstoppable. Now she feels like her own shadows. Asking herself the little bit that seems left. Somewhere, someplace, the answers to my unending questions lies but it’s uncertain she would ever have answers to the traitors, liars and foes like friends.

Shaking herself from the dust, she rose up. Gathers strength to stand in between the two walls that have enclosed her dreams. The walls of impossibility and mediocrity. She gathers courage to dress herself in the garment of splendor, takes a sit for she cannot die in this hopelessness and deception. 

“Rub the fears of my face, rinse me from the drunkenness of sorrow, free me from the chains around my neck, she shout aloud. A song is about to be heard. A child is about to be born. 
You can see it in the flame of her eyes. You can read it in her thought. 
With both feet pressed against the floor, she groans in pain. 
Each hand against the wall in the darkness, she pushed, pushed and pushed.
And at the peak of time, she birth the child of her dreams


Birth your dreams. 

God has placed the ability to reach your most feared destination.

Oluwamitomisin